If You Wish for My Despair
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If You Wish for My Despair

To You Who Desire My Despair ; To You Who Wish For My Despair ; あなたが私の絶望を願うなら ; Anata ga Watashi no Zetsubou wo Negaunara ; 나의 절망을 바라는 당신에게

Authors : Konekoneko , Samoh

Status : Ongoing

Genres : Adaptation , Comedy , Drama , Fantasy , Manhwa , Romance , Webtoons

Chapters: 96

Last update: 5 months ago

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43 votes
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51.2%
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4.7%
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9.3%
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30.2%
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An orphan Anastasia, despite being of noble birth, was unable to afford to eat because of debts left behind by her parents. One day, her uncle, the Earl of Everdeen, proposes that she marry Theodore, a rival duke, in exchange for repayment of her debts, and Anastasia is sent to live with him. However, what awaits her is a life of ridicule, not only from Theodore but also from the maids. She is served with a messed-up dress and rotten food, and eventually, Theodore tells her, "It's a good thing your parents are dead." Anastasia is lonely and in despair, but one day she meets a man at a ball, and her destiny is changed forever.To You Who Desire My Despair , To You Who Wish For My Despair , , Anata ga Watashi no Zetsubou wo Negaunara , mangabuddy is a website dedicated to fans of anime, , , , video games, and cosplay. Where you may find all of your anime-related memes, recommendations, reviews, manga recommendations, character fanfiction, favorite quotations, and simply those ordinary anime things that you enjoy, particularly memes.You can Follow mangabuddy if you want to read the latest chapters of the . With a massive collection of hundreds of , all of which have been translated into good English, you'll find enough "reading" material to fill a library. With high-quality artwork, your library will be quickly filled with your .

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Escape reality 2 months ago Rocks
A roller-coaster of emotions ,one of the best  satisfying  endings
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Akeelah 3 months ago Meh
This is an ill fated love story... just saying.
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Kusuo 5 months ago Rocks
This is NOT a romance manhwa, just as the title suggests it's pure tragedy and trauma, the history is really well written and the ending is fitting for the protagonists.
If you are expecting a happy ending or romance between the fl and ml then don't read this, this one is for people that enjoy suffering.
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vzk255 5 months ago Meh
Spoiler!
surprisingly sad ending
art was decent
storytelling was also nice 
but plot was just depresing from start to end
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Luxfulgens 5 months ago Meh
Not good but not bad to be honest it's a depressing story nothing goes well...
The two main characters don't have a big development it's just a tragic story.
And the last 10 chap are kind of disappointing ( for me it's been a while more than 10 chapter....)
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Figgyfrac a year ago Sucks big time
Listen the 5 star people have a point that it shows why villains become villains except that the male lead has gone past the point of any form of redemption and the torture is gratuitous. I'm writing this at 60+ chapters and I need to say this. DON'T READ THIS MANGA. Many of us who read these types of tropes do it for a revenge arc or a redemption arc or even just a "I accidentally became the Fl cuz I'm oblivious and nice" arc. This is none of these. This is pain. This is just watching broken humans become more broken and inflict pain upon each other without learning or growing or any form of relief. There is no comic relief. No slice of life moments that most writers know you use to make characters relatable and ease tension. No tension is eased. Many of us held out hoping for the mc to find freedom or just any form of happiness only to see more hurt and torment. There is no rock bottom only an endless pit of despair. Every chapter trashes your mental health for the day. Those of us still holding on are here with dead eyes basically holding vigil as we watch her torment and pray that she may one day finally die and find some semblance of peace. I read a spoiler early on that this may be a reincarnation one and the pain continues and that is just cruel beyond words. The amount of time I've been in the manga community is not short and with all the things I've seen and read I consider myself a jaded reader at this point. Not much can shake me anymore. But 60? 60+ chapters of endless cruelty, hubris, and despair? Even my stomach is turned. I don't know what the author is going for anymore but I hope they are ok. Because this isnt.
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Rui kurei a year ago Sucks big time
As tittle says its sucks if u want to read sad and depression 
This is one of manga u read. 
Only DEATH can bring them to HE** both female lead and male lead. 
This deserve 1 star. No 0 star it should be.
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duck a year ago Rocks
Rocks. 

I read this for the pain it gives me. I like the pain
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duck 9 months ago
this is before he got worse....
zawlin htike a year ago Rocks
nothing is wrong with this except too much suffering and depression.all in all pretty good.
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Ivern a year ago Rocks
🏅

"I like the villainess trope! It's so fun!"

*Toxic Gossip Train's ukulele jingle suddenly stops with a loud disk scratch*

Do you? Do you now? Really? Oh no, don't mind me. I'm just asking. Out of curiosity. Because, mayhaps, you don't really like them. You like strong, bold women. Maybe you like red hair. Maybe moral ambiguity. But that's not being a villain, is it? Those women all have a modicum of empathic reason that stops them one step from the cliff.

Being evil, per se, is to be cruel. Is to be cruel knowingly, without just cause. It's understanding good, and doing otherwise. But every villain isn't the evil they commit, they are the WHY they do it. Behind that word, the essence of the character is hidden. 

Anastasia is, legitimately, a monster. A monster who rose from the ashes of a woman who was demolished. Raised to the ground. Time after time, until only her worst parts endured. Her story is not about power, nor particularly about revenge. It's a tragedy blooming from rage, violence begotten by injustice. It's about evil thrashing out of impotence. 

The manga shows us her "why", behind that. A big part of it is her ML, Theodore. There is no development that can save this båstard. There is not enough room in he** for his honestly uncalled for amount of cruelty. Anastasia, as a person, could be salvaged. Theodore needs to be fücking put down. And thrown in a ditch. He's a cowardly, vile türd. Ffs he also dresses like sh**! Not ONE redeemable quality! 

And that's it. No second chances, no reincarnation. This is it. A tragedy. But with nice art, and really great writing. I could watch these two tear each other's souls to shreds all day. It's unique, because not many stories have the ba*** to morally compromise their couple to this extent and make it work too. In a way, at least. I cannot but love the rabid, broken, honest to gôd crazy bītch that is FL.

A GAI (Grand Acolade of Ivern™️) IS IN ORDER, but detoxify with smooshy romance later. It can be... A lot. 
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red cap a year ago Kinda bad
While overal theme of dealing with trauma and hatred is interesting, male lead is disapoint. He is is shallow, passive and have no personality. Every opportunity to act he is just "too tired". We only know he exist because he have doubs in head for 50 chapters, otherwise if we skip all panels with him, story would be the same.
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Vampire a year ago Rocks
In my opinion I love this story...maybe some people don't find this story interesting but I love this storyline plot and character.. plus it fill many emotions in want story, sad revenge anger...so I find it very good to read ♥️♥️♥️keep it up author love your work🥰🥰
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Ephipony a year ago Sucks big time
So now you will be thinking why I put one star right?
Is because this is type of manhwa for the person who wants to fu** a character because me I'm so fuc**** pis*** with this story the ml is so fuc**** dumb and he treats her like sh** when him is the fuc**** sh**.
But let us look the good side the fl she wise asf like she intelligent 🧠 she got brain huh I'm not gonna lie I like the story in the first chapters but later I was getting pis*** of for a moment I almost break my phone.
I'm not gonna lie the manhwa is interesting I repeat for people who likes to beat people I swear you will like it
And no hate this is my opinion 
I know that many people will be thinking that why I'm still reading this manhwa is because is so fuc**** interesting so read this even though you are gonna get pis*** of so is up to you
AUTHOR IF YOU SEE THIS REVIEW PLEASE MAKE THE ML GET SOME SENSE
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Ticky Tock a year ago Rocks
Sorry for rating late... But, but!

This is a type of comic that makes you wanna say ..

So good, it's a wreck of fun and hatred, if you like the harmony of narcissistic and harming content. Read this!
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I am ur father 2 years ago Meh
At this point the servents are getting on my nerves and that two mother Fuc**** in chapter 23 are also getting on my nerves I don't care if that black haired bi*** and the that red haired tomato end up together I just want her to kill those people who treated her badly 😢 
If the red haired tomato ends up killing that black haired bi*** then that will be fine to me but if not then i don't care.
btw yes I've forgot their names 😅
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caffoo 2 years ago Rocks

A lot of the children eating this story don't understand that rating a story badly cause the female lead is going through the developmental phase is silly.

most 1 star complain about how bad the male lead is but most stories start off this way. Some even give spoilers. It's sad. 


I'll tell you this, the story is good you get to see how the male lead acts and see the female lead descend unto madness. The story is a revenge story, no reincarnation . Just emotions of love, hate and betrayal.

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Ticky Tock a year ago
including jealousy, revenge and ecstasy~

"An existence observes, a sign tells that erstwhile with you, Opticophile of heaven, bye and take good care- of me."

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Banana monkey 2 years ago Sucks big time
Wow just WOW. 

The main lead in this story, my g** he is the worst person I have seen in one of these stories. Like honestly I severely hope that he doesn't find happiness. 

The female lead utterly despises him and it's honestly deserved. He stole every single bit of happiness from her. He abused her verbally and emotionally AND HE'S STARTING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HER?!! like this man honestly deserves no love at all in his life. 

Spoiler!
But the crowning thing that makes him an a****** beyond saving. Is when he said he's glad her parents died. 
 
Utter and absolute trashy ML
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Ticky Tock a year ago
please rate the story not the  dude.

"An existence observes, a sign tells that erstwhile with you, Opticophile of heaven, bye and take good care- of me."

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Banana monkey a year ago
@Ticky Tock that's a fair point when I find time I'll reread and edit it later.

Monki gang for life 🤟🤟

Miharu 2 years ago Sucks big time
2nd time I hate an husband so bad. If i can give this 0 star i would gladly do it. I feel pity for FL all the time. The moment I think she see hope the husband ruin everything. Idk what happen whit the author for thinking reader would forgive a scum like him but i can tell you I HATE HIM. He digust me. This fuc**** trash who isnt worthy to be called an humain being. F him and f all his servant and f everyone in this story unless one person beside MC who will make her happy. If you like torture yourself whit story like "the mistress run away" this is you cup of tea. 2 trash ML.
Spoiler!
ML is trash he hate FL just because she is from a family he despise. This bas**** bully her mentaly and same whit every single person. He is jealous of her happiness so he kill the only person who will make her happy. She lose her mind. Blablabla
She die. And this fuc**** trashy ugly good for nothing mother fuc*** would be the one to return to the past and have a second chance. WTF author WTF.
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Ticky Tock a year ago
please... Just please.. review the story for those who haven't read this... Not the characters and their personalities...

"An existence observes, a sign tells that erstwhile with you, Opticophile of heaven, bye and take good care- of me."

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